unforgettable.

Happy New Year 2016! So Natalie Cole died today. At 65, this velvet throated song goddess fell off the face of the earth. Apparently plagued with health issues for months. Years. She “succumbed” to them and just left.

I obsess about death more often than most. I’m thinking that’s how it works. Born in a minute or two. Dead in the same. I mean the process of death can linger longer, but the actual act of dying is minutes. Seconds. 

Seems somehow trite that we get this seemingly expansive chunk of time to work with. Time enough to pay bills. Fix things. Fix a few people. Create relationships. Drink coffee, beer and maybe wine. And sometimes we get to sing. 

Mortality at my age is looming. Not on my lap mind you, but certainly in the same area. It’s like he’s staring at me from the very back of a doctor’s waiting room. Like a toddler who stares at a man with one leg. It’s cute. Innocent almost. Then easily distracted by a sudden burst of laughter or a bag of peanut M&Ms. 

I often feel the need to constantly throw mortality a bone. A carrot. I’m always tirelessly thrusting images of me evolving. Growing. Learning. Of not just sitting on a sofa waiting to go. I subconsciously (or quite purposefully) want Le Morte to forget about me. Skip over me and move on to someone else.

And then I see. He does.

This time.

  

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3 thoughts on “unforgettable.

  1. heretherebespiders January 4, 2016 / 3:52 pm

    Happy New Year to you both. Sounds like you are doing a good job at keeping Mr Reaper away so far. Peanut M&M’s – surely that much innocent joy is enough to keep him over ‘there’ with the ones who couldn’t gum a peanut to death if they tried!

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      • heretherebespiders January 4, 2016 / 5:10 pm

        I think my favourite silly reason for living is the malted milk, chocolate covered eggs they sell at easter. Sadly they are not sold here. I will eat them until I can’t move.

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